birthday

So many people wished me happy birthday today. I don't think this many people wished me happy birthday since ... i don't know. gee hope this means my social circle will be expanding. It's nice to know people think your worth a good thought or two.

Falcon Wings

beat a:

sometimes
the sands
blow so hard
it rips
my cheeks
away

sometimes
the sands
blow so hard
it burns
my eyes
with tears

Look hard
into my face
cannot
you see
the fire

look hard
into my eyes
cannot
you see
the fire

how long
must I
travel
how long
must I
be alone

how long
must I endure
how long
must this
keep on

can you
follow
my steps
has the wind
blown them away

have the
lessons
been learned
how further
must I stray



beast b:

soaring
soaring
soaring
on falcon wings

rising
rising
rising
on falcon wings

sailing
sailing
sailing
on falcon wings

drifting
drifting
drifting
on falcon wings



interlude:

standing tall
in suffering
brings on
arrogance
standing tall in suffering
there is no
need for gods




beat b:

soaring
soaring
soaring
on falcon wings

gliding
gliding
gliding
on falcon wings



Main Verse:

drifting on
drifting on
drifting on
it won't hurt
I can't here the whistle
I can't feel the sharp edge
drifting on
drifting on
of the little whips
circling around me
entangling me
let my armor go
let her fight the wind
it don't matter
she'll arrive
she'll keep on
I'll be a place
where there's no lonely
I'll be able to think
I'll be able to guide her
to the destiny
we both agree
sitting on my falcon
riding ahead
I'll come down
when the storm's over
and share the ecstasy
but here I can't think
I can't be
I can't be
the wind binds
the wind binds
despair binds
in this misery
I can't go on
I must keep on
traveling in the sand
I've got to
I've got to
fly
fly
fly
fly



interlude 2:

can you see her there
in the sky
can you see her there
bird of prey
can you see her there
in the sky
can you see her there
fly away



beat a:

sometimes
the winds
blow so hard
sometimes
the night
grows so cold

sometimes
the sands
bring hard rain
I just
have to
get away

sometimes
it grows
so cold
I just
have to
go away

sometimes
the wind's
too deep
sometimes
my breath
fades away



beat b:

soaring
soaring
soaring
on falcon wings

sailing
sailing
sailing
on falcon wings



center Refrain:

find the voice inside my heart
the falcon will hear my call
find the center of my soul
find the eye of my storm
grab hold of her talons
let her take me away
see the world spinning
hungry mice run



release:

fare thee well
old foes
fare thee well
brick walls
fare thee well
proud heads
fare the well
knives and spears
see me on my falcon
high above your hate
can you see my falcon
can you see my eyes
can you hurt
one who can't feel
can you hurt
one who does not care
can you hurt
one who's already gone
when you find
my laughter
I will conquer
on falcon wings
take what is due me
on falcon wings
hungry Amazon
on bird of prey
I will gain my worth
on falcon wings

I think my nephew is going prematurly bald. saw his pictures on facebook and his hairline is so receeding. He's not even 21 yet. oh well. I hope he doesn't read this blog or I'll never be his aunt again.

so satan one. after all his anti woman tricks

I feel that women’s rights have been drop kicked to the times where the only thing we are good for is to wrap a penis when it needs a fuck and spit our boy babies and occasianal new fuck machines when the old ones wear out.

I hope there’s life after death and if there is I want to be reborn on a planet where women treat men like pieces of shit.

I really hate men right now.

pplied for my piston permit on Saturday. It'll be four weeks until I know weather I can be approved or not. here's hoping. Gosh I hope McCain pulls it off today. Obama is scary

This election season has been shit on me. My stomach is all in knots. I feel like a hammer of impending doom is about to crush us all into a state of opression. I just don't feel good. Hopefully it's the same dispair I felt before the Pats won the superbowl for the first time or when the red sox broke the bambinos curse. that expectation of the worst. I just wish this shit was over and done with. I hope America can survive Obama. I don't want to move to Ireland

Massachusetts: the true nanny state

I just came back from my Gun SAftey course. and you wouldn't believe the asssinine gun laws in my state. If you have a license to conceal a gun. and the wind accidentally opens your jacket so that someone see it. You can be arrested for assault with a dangerous weapon. just for someone accidentally seeing the thing. DAMN. And what's the use in using it for protection when you have to have a million locks on it. by the time you get it all unlocked your brains are blown out by the Obot. and even your medical records can be checked because all the hostpitals are linked to the MASS Health System. I guess if Obama takes over,, my state is so messed up I won't know the diffeerance. evey cloud has a silver lining

attitude editing

my friend told me that one of my posts was too revealing about my self and so I deleted it. I sometimes just let my mind spit out what's in my head before thinking of the consequenses. but I'm like that. I don't care what people think cause its such a pain to maintain a facade. I have better places to pour my energy to. Being phoney is such a waste. but I thought twice and came to the conclsion that maybe I don't want everyone to know everything. I hate secrets. I wish people could just be themselves and lay cards on the table

Pistol Permit

I'm going to apply for a pistol permit. This Saturday I'm going to go to the gun saftey course you have to go through in order to apply. then I will have to apply for the permit at the local police station. I know a cop so maybe I could use him as a reference. Maybe my friend Karen will vouce for me too. I want to be able to protect myself if Obama gets elected. I think he could really take away our freedoms if elected. All my freinds are liberals and they think I am insane anyways. one woman actually had to wash her arm cause I accidentaly touched it. I came out of the closet as a lesbain and now I have to go back in cause I'm not pollitically correct

blog

Ok so I didn't tear up Hillary's sign. It's still on my deck for all to see. Hillary has to lay low I guess. but I still hate Obama with a passion that cannot be quenched. Everybody thinks that because they are liberal they have to vote for this moron but I don't trust him. He's gonna turn on them like he always does.

It's terrible the way I have to be in the closet about my beliefs. and I thought I would never have to hide again after coming out about my sexuality. Just the other night somebody said that they had to wash their arm because I am voting for Mccain and I touched them

Candle for SAra

I went to that gratefullness site and started a candle group for Sara Palinhere is the link
she needs all the help she can get cause Emperor Obama and the dembots are not going to be nice

Also Hillary has drank the cool aid. I know she had to be miss nice nice during the convention but thumping for him after the convention is too much. this party loyalty is too much. Hillary
, I am tearing up my sign when I get home from work. You are a loser. A true leader knows when to cut loses and go the other way. You have failed this test. good luck

Blood Sucking Jack Asses

I am confused, appalled totally blown away by the creatures who now inhabit the democrat party. Thugs threatening Delegats and stalking them at conventions. Rigged votes and now Laughing at people who are in the path of a hurricane because it delays the Republican convention. This is the party of the people?? passing bullshit around about a 16 year old girl and a baby with downs syndrome?? what are these freaks?? winning and power are so important to you that we are just tools, toys and things to manipulate? No humanity. no feeling. what are you sick fucks!!! When I left your stinking party in March little did I know how much my instinct was screaming for the right course. If David Icke's theory about reptilians is true, we know who they are. Cold blooded bastards all of you

I couldn't watch

I don't know. I just couldn't put myself to watch her speech last night. It just felt like women were being set back again. The most qualified candidate beaten down by a gallant prick who knows shit all becasue the other pricks are afraid of loosing the power of their mighty sperm. Then she has to say: Oh please vote for my abuser. he's such a nice guy


FUCK PATRIARCHY. FUCK WOMEN WHO COWER UNDER MEN. TAKE UP THE LABDRYS. CUT THEIR FUCKING BALLS OFF.

It wasn't my choice

Sometimes I wish I was heterosexual like everyone else. It would be so much easier. I would have had a partner by now. The Dykes in this area are so selfish and into themselves. All they care about is being politically correct or having the right amount of money or the right house. I've been alone for so long. and you have to admit, being gay isn't normal. There's definitaly something not wired right about us. It would be so much easier to find someone to share my life with if I wasn't a dyke. Also gay unions don't last as long as straight ones. If I do find someone the best chance I got is what? two years. three years? I'm telling you this right here and now. If they have a vaccine or a pill that fixes this abnormality in my brain called alternate sexually,,,,, I am sooooo there. I hate being gay. When I was lying in my bed late at night about 20 years ago I knew I was going to end up lonely. That's why I wanted to deny it. Oh if they come out with that treatment....I am soooo there.

WTF!!!!!

I have no clue where this country is going. Sometimes I think it's going to end up better for this crises, sometimes I think we're at the end of what was once a great civilization. I see obama struting cocky along and I'm wondering: are they setting him up for a great fall or has he been given a guarentee that he will be our dictator. If it's the latter, where will I hide? I just want to be free and let others live the same way. Then I read about islam encroaching and wanting to put sharia law down my throat. Another threat to the freedom of women. Will we ever get anywhere. Seems as though every thousand years when we are about to strike even some shit happens and we are back to the stoning age where we are nothing but fuck tools, baby factories, slaves to the almightly penis. God I am so sick of it. I want to be reincarnated to a world where WE are in charge. and men have to do the cooking and cleaning. They have to raise the children we bear. I want to be with warrior women. tribe of lionesses. No more of this shit where men beat women up because of having a bad day. I keep thinking of that story of that women in pakistan where her husband thought she was having an affair so the bastard gouged out her eyes and cut of her nose ears and tongue. what the fuck????????:? or that tribe in africa that thows twins or illegitmate babies in the river because it may be bad luck?? wtf??? and then you see these crack pot anthropoligists who just academically dismiss this fucked up culter as their way of coping with the unknown instead trying to educate these people. what the fuck??????? and don't get me started on genital mutitaltion and honor killing. what the fuck????? Goddess is this the only life I'm going to have??? This world is fucked up. America is the only island left where there are pockets of people whith any respect for life. and this country could be destroyed???? What the fuck?????

Mom helps out again

I had to sell what little jewelry I had from my mom. Her big gold chain and her gold bracelet. I also sold a ring I bought a thousand years ago. I needed the money to pay bills. There is one piece of jewelry I vow never to sell unless I am totally desperate. Its broken because they had to cut it off her finger when she had the stroke and her hand swelled. It's a ring with three diamonds in it where each stone represented each of us. She never took it off. never. That ring was my mom. She was very proud of that ring. If i have to sell it, shoot me cause that will mean that I am really scraping the bottom of the barrell.

Freedom

My houseguest who has invaded my home for a month is now gone. gone. gone I say!! I am free. Now I can leave my dirty clothes anywhere I want. leave my dishes anywhere I want. No more kitty litter to step on in the night. No more kitties to step on and scare the shit out of me in the middle of the night when I step on their tail. I can burn insense now. I can use my own shampoo. I don't have to wait in line to use my own computer!!! I can read my books in the bathroom and don't have to have them moved. My refridgerator isn't filled with food I don't eat. LIFE IS GOOD.

SNIP

Yeah my hair got pretty long. didn't really fathom how long it got. it just got below my waist. I could comb my hair in front of my face and put on my glasses and voila, cousin IT. I was getting sick of struggling to put the mess in a pony tail. ssick of it getting into my mouth wenever the wind blew. Sick of waiting 4 hours for it to dry.

So I gathered my courage. went to the salon. winced and told the lady to give it away. there is a program that gives away hair to make wigs for people who have lost theirs to cancer.

Its gonna be freaky if I see someone walking down the street with a wig that looks like my old hair.
I sometimes think about how long it took to grew that hair and all the things I have been through while it was on my head. All those connections to those events gone in a snip. My mothers passing. my old crummy job at comprehensive inventory, me trying to make money fiddling on the street, installing credit card machines all over new england gone with a snip.

new hair new life. I got a cool job now, it's almost like getting paid to have fun. I wonder if it ever will go down to my waist again

My Humble Opinion

If she can pull this off she will be history in stone. Hillary will be registered as one of our great presidents. Not for the economy, or bringing us out of Iraq. She will be remembered for standing strong against the tide of fasicm and special interests who wish to wisk away our democracy. The is a force out there who wants to take away what little free will we have and the mask is Obama. Can't you see it in his mussolini sneer. If she pulls this off. she will have stopped these movements. The movements that think we can't think for ourselves. That's why she's in this. To say, not so fast. We are at a crossroads and we don't know how fragile the precipise is.

down and low

Man it's depressing to be a hillary clinton supporter these days. I'm almost ready for tears. Declaring Obamass to be the victor and his smiling face everywhere. Depressed because of the Obamabots being so cruel and nasty. Scared because I believe that Obama is our Hitler and is going to take us down a road we will surely barely survive. I tell ya. I feel like crying

ARGGG Infection

Yeah this is more fun with technology. I come into work and I find I have 34 sessions of Internet explorer open on my monitor. Looks like a little buggy entered my system and decided to tell my that I am infected and that I need to buy this software to remove it. Seems as though this sucker is a worm and every time you try to delete it, it replicates and renames itself. Clever little bastard. Well after two virus scans and registyr sweep we managed to spray the sucker with AVG virus protection. Seems as though all these months I have had no virus software on my system. Oh jeese. these things are nasty. a whole day wasted on decontamination. fun fun.

Well, There Goes My Rebate

I'm coming home from Mary Lou's party when I hear the beep and the happy brake light goes on. Well I better get the damn thing over and done with before It wears itself into a bigger problem and I have to replace the calibers or something. Well first thing Monday I go to midas and get the thing inspected. Verdict. Leak in the brake valve near the calibers. Need to replace them both cause in about a few weeks I'll have the same trouble in the other one too. total damage: One rebate check from the government. happy happy joy joy.

I'm still not content

Everyone thinks that Wright is going to sink Obama. well I'm not so sure. Like a bad Mold this asshole keeps coming back. I want to see a massive melt down. I want to make sure this guy is so discredited there is no way back for him. Obama is one of these people like my cousin Ann who no matter what evil things she's done , she's always got a lucky break to keep her afloat. Getting by with little or no effort. Hurting people left and right and still manages to find a sucker to give her sympathy. I don't think Obama is harmless yet. I think he could still surge again.

So much for Pride

I did not go to pride yesterday. It was scuzy weather and I really am not into it this year. I mean all these people in one place and the entertainment is so lame. It's been kinda sucky since they hold it in that parking lot near Thorne's Market place. No room at all. I think that now that Pretty much we have most of our rights in Mass there is no purpose to it anymore. No urgent mission. It's more like an in your face gay version of St Patty's Day

Hard Disk Crash

Happy Happy I went to play my music and yippe yahoo my external hard drive crashes. Oh goody all my pictures are gone. all my music and my archived comic books. oh my gosh. well nothing is ever really destroyed. I download a program for about a hundred bucks and yes it;s still there but I don't have any space to recover it. Oh goody another hundred bucks and I get another terra byte of external drive 2 to restore all my crap. Was it worth it. eh, I guess so.

Feeling Dirty?

Maybe it's because you've been soaked in Obama's Laundy List of Lies

Hillary's Fortune Cookie

My friend and I ordered out of chinese a couple of days ago. we got an extra fortune cookie. My friend set it aside saying this one is for Hillary. Guess it was a good Omen.

stiffed again but this time I am ready

My comic book store was gyped again out of my favorite title. I was so ripped. So I called the store in amherst, they were out. there's a store in greenfield, They would be closed by the time I got there. Alone and dejected and wonder woman less I resigned my fate to not having my comic book fix. Then in my deep contemplation I went to the internet and did a search of other comic book stores in my area. Lo and behold there was a new dealer in Chicopee. I called. they had one copy left. Moral of the story: Goddess damn it I get what I want. Nobody comes between me and my comics!! Nobody!!!!

Sign for Hillary

I got my weather proof Hillary campaign sign and I tied it to the deck of my apartment with red twine. Hopefully there won't be another wind storm like the one that made the tree attack my car. If so, I have another one!

Saturday I volunteered for a neighboring congressional district to sign in voters to pick which delgates to sent to the Democratic Convention. They were all Hillary Delegates. This is the most involved in politics I have ever been

On the comic front. I bought a ticket to the new york city comic convention in New york City. I want to meet Gail Simone and have her sign some books. Her wonder woman rocks.

Courage for Clinton

I am basically a shy creature. Don't like to intrude on other people's lives. But when I saw that poll that had Obama up by 2 in Pennsylvania I had to do something. I'm also a cheapskate. Rather spend money on comic books than food so long distance calls are totally off the budget. Hell my wallet hurts when I call my brother in Rhode Island. So I clicked on the map of pennsyvalnia on the Hillary Clinton site. and a name and number comes up and scripts for you to recite. so I am getting up my courage. and I'm pressing the buttons and there is ringing. and a guy answeres. and I say the stuff on the script but add a few personal touches. He's going to vote for hilllary. then I called another. but it was an answering machine. I am up to 2. I'm goinna work on more courage. and hopefully it will reap more calls

Encounter with a chinchilla

I finally got to meet "miss curious" Shannon's adorable little fluffball filled with cheer and spunk. Karen and I got to feed her wich was cool. The other two chinchillas she had before were grumpy balls that just languished on the bottom of the cage and existed. Miss Curious runs all around and actually uses her excercise wheel. Later Shannon lett Miss curious out and she was climbing all over me. Maybe because I was next to the window. her feet were smooth and her fur is sooooo soft. If felt cool rubbing next to my skin. I could tell she was a very happy animal. All pets should be this cheerful.

WHEELS!!!!!

Got my car back yesterday. I am now a free woman to transport myself anywhere I damn please! Not only that, I get a new antenna which has been fucked up for almost a year now and I can pick up am stations now. I get a new side mirror which is awesome because my old one had the reflective paint peeling off. Since it is an old car I told the repair man not to be anal about the dings and dents. just get the glass in so that it doesn't leak and use enough paint to prevent rust. He saved a lot of money and I just maybe getting some money back. instead of paying a deductablee. yeee ha

waiting for my idependance to be resumed

The guy at the autobody shop said he would call me about 2PM. it's now 2PM. I want my car back. these last two weeks have totally sucked. being dependant on my friend for rides and cooped up in my apartment. I am running out of food and I am two days late for my comic books. I hate this. I have to mail a package I should have mailed two weeks ago. It is so frustrating not to have a &*(&%#$ car.

He's done is job, can he go home now?

Obama was in the race for one thing and one thing only. He was in it to destroy the democratic coalition and destroy Hillary's chances of getting the nomination. He knew this wright stuff was going to hit the fan sooner or later and he knew he could never win the general election. what a fucking turd. I wonder how much he was paid by rove and the republicans. To me there is no punishment that would compensate for the damage he did this country. Death is too good for him. He hates this country and all white people. He's just like his damn reverend. And most of American fell for it. All those lofty liberals who want to proove how "progressive" they are. All those african americans who voted for color and not quality. Well, they ain't gonna get any closer to the white house now. You think after today's speech people are going to vote for him. He admitted he lied. A great crises is coming and the only woman who could do anything about it has been stopped in her tracks. I hope a fate worse than death is waiting this turd

Maybe it's a good thing he'll win

I've come to thinking. Maybee it would be good if Obama wins. And becomes president. After that big banking mess that broke today. this is the tip of the iceberg with the crisis coming. The next president is going to be neck deep in shit. Do I want that for Clinton. McCain's a nice guy, whould I want it for him? The next president is going to be blamed for the next half decade at least of shit. And guess who that may be. Guess who might go down as the president who brought us to the worse part of our history. Bush is clever enough to postpone the worst till 2009. Oh they will give him some credit. but the big blam's going to the next president. He will flunder and blunder and be driven out on a rail in shame. It won't take the congress long to impreach his liar's ass. Maybe this is what obama needs to get the hell out of our lives

Tell me they're not the same person

Candy Crowley started working for CNN shortly after John Candy's "death" Tell me they're not the same person....I dare ya!!!

Keep Falling Messaih

This wright thing is Big. but how far will it go? It's a long way to Pennsyvania and our Mcdonald fast food memory is short when not fed. I knew his arrogance would be his undoing. He was the kind of guy that thought he could do no wrong and those idiots hardly ever see the trip wire at their ankles. There has to be more though. This has to be the begining to a landslide that will ruin him.

I think Hillary was right in not commenting. I guess she thought to herself that this blunder was perfection that she couldn't top. Obama is such an asshole. I really wonder what kind of country we are in when people would just give away their freedom to escape desperate times.

Wheel Withdrawel

I miss my car. The insurance compay appraised it and now its gonna be fixed when the parts come in. It will be ready in about a week or so. being without a car makes me dependant on people. I can't come and go as I please.

My comic books should be in today. They gave wonder woman a boyfreind which kinda bumms me out. Hell even comic book characters get more action than I do. Forty six years old and I have never felt what its like to be in love. I hope this isn't the only life we have. there are so many things I would like to so and be. One life isn't enough

No comics today

I am so sad. I went to pick up my comics today at the store and they weren't delivered. Wonder woman comes out today. Everybody is saying what an awesome story it is and the art was cool and I may not be able to get it into my hands until Friday. I'm sorry but Comics are one of the few things that take my mind off this messy world. I need my fix. I am so bummed. I hope they get them in tomorrow. Oh I'm praying. I am so depressed.

I have got to call the auto body shop tomorrow and find out if the insurance company checked out my car yet and If they will start fixing it. I miss my car. this week has not been kind.

Attack of the Killer Tree

Ok, it's sunday and I am ready to stay in bed 'cause I don't have to work. My neighnor is pounding on the door. A tree attacked my car? No a tree fell on my car. awwwww shit. my rear windshied is gone. My sunroof is shattered. My roof is all dented. My driver's side mirror is swiped off. My car is trashed. sucks. ca ca. Well I put in a claim to my insurance company. they should call be tomorrow. I tell my boss I'll be working from home tomorrow. this is gonna be all ca ca. I got in touch with the people who own the property the tree was on. lesson: Feed the trees. they get pissed when you ignore them. Ca ca. I'm pretty sure I'm covered. if not then total ca ca

No matter what , it was history

Tuesday was a turning point. Hillary had her Alamo and she came through. She survived the fire. It doesn't matter anymore if she wins the nomination or not. She made her statement when she won Texas. They threw everything at her and she still came out on top. She has already blazed the trail for those who will come after her. I think she broke the first and the thickest glass ceiling. Hillary made History. If she gets elected people will think that it's her inaguaration that will be history. I believe that is a ceremony. No she crashed through a big barrier on Tuesday. History and Hillary are now bound together. There's still plenty that can go wrong between now and Pennsylvania. She could get cocky and blow it. But the statement has been made. Patriarchy did it's best to beat down a woman of conviction and make a sorry example of her but it failed. This is the beginning of the end of Man's cruel domination of the planet. Amazon nation is coming, boys. get used to it.

One of those Days

Yeah sometimes it just don't pay to get up. but these days aren't as bad as they used to be. it comes as one problem comming after the other but I easily dispatch them as they come. Getting up for work I can't find my wallet or my keys, ok so what? just like most days. Get out to the car and find my sunroof is open. try to close it and it opens up again. great it's winter and I got air conditioning. Well, I need to get to the garage and get this sucker fixed and fast. so I back up into this big snowbank in the parking lot that has now been built up even more from the weekend's snow storm and now I'm stuck. real stuck. It's shovel time. that's a good half hour of excerise I didn't want. My muscels are going to ache because this isn't fluffly new snow, it's the old settled kind that is now clumps of ice that do not want to be moved.

Call work to tell them I will be late and I'm told that the Powerschool program is down. goody goody I'm looking forward to glueing the phone to my ear while I wait for tech support to decide they want to help me out. The state report I though was done, needs more tweaking because it doens't mesh with the one last year.


Long time ago I would have lost it when the keys disappeared. Over the years I have realized that whatever forces conspire to ruin my day, they can't stop me from living my life. Whenever I get the string of obstacles I'm like:whatever. next.

I did get the sunroof closed. seems as though there was a twig or somthing on the track or something so the auto closer was stuck or something like that.

Yesterday I went to buy my comics and the debit card declined. Then I went to the Atm and my card was cancelled. I was not happy. The bank said that my debit card would be all set on wesnsday. they said that about my online account too but I had to call them to get the account xfered over. Today I had to call them again for the debit card.

It really annoys me when people say they are going to do something and they end up not doing it. bery annoying.

I still have to play my fiddle. I keep resolving to and everyday I pass it by. The rejection of when my old landlady used to play her music loud when I started still blocks me. There was nothing I could do and I let her push me around. I got to start up again.

I am going to take a picture of myself and try to use an online service to make a passport photo. then I will get the idendification section signed by one of the principles of the school I work at and then I wil make a trip to boston to the Irish Consulate and get my irish passsport. If Obama wins the election I do not want to live here. This won't be my country anymore

Bill Collecter Blues

This freakin' bill collector keeps calling me every day and I don't know what came over me. I just wanted him to leave me alone. So I agree to this deal I really can't afford. He says he needs my checking account information and I told him a million times I don't give out that kinda info. Guess what dinga ling did. I was at a "leave me the fuck alone" moment and I fork over the info. an hour later I realize I don't have the funds for it. Saturday morning I had to close my account and start up a new one. I have to go to payroll tomorrow and redo me direct deposit. Make sure my insurance company knows my new account number. and I can't use my debit card for at least three freakin' days. arrrrrrghhhhhhh! What was I thinking??? I will never do that again. Sometimes I wonder if I was possessed. I mean I knew it was stupid. Many times before I refused. Ugh. everybody has a weak moment. I hope I never get that way again.

I'm thinking of changing my phone number and getting it unlisted. So that stupid bill collectors will never call me again. I hate bill collectors

I am slowly, detaching myself from the circus. I didn't go to the news websites as much. Today I got my comic books. I am going to make an effort to start playing my violin again. I'm going to settle into a world where I really don't give a flying fuck what happens as long as all mean and nasty people stay the fuck out of my way. Hopefully the economy won't tank so much that I'll lose my job. Hopefully if we are invaded by another country they stay the fuck out of Western Massachusetts. And I will laugh hysterically when someone cries about how Obama turned out to be a big fraud. and I'll say don't look at me.....your the asshole who worshiped him. then I'll walk away and wonder why generations don't learn from each other. Why do the young think that evil shit is all in the past and it don't happen all over again. beats me.
It's like we are a bunch a silly hampsters in a wheel that keep runing and runing and we think we are going great places.
I think that this is the planet where they dump all the insane souls.

Death Knell from Wisconsen

Fox has already released its exit poll and Obama has shamed the women in wisconsen. Hillary is done. Even after that dog of a wife Obama has dissed american they still fall for that crap he's shoveling out. Texas is almost tied. After tonight He'll be going on about how he won wisconsen and that will take him over the top. she'll lose texas and then all the super delagates.

I am so sick tonight. I don't want those people in My white house. those arroagant, hating phoneys who really don't give a shit about anyone but themselves.

I got my application for an Irish passport. I'm going to fill it out and get one. I'm seriously thinking about moving to Ireland

I have got to desensitise myself to politics. It's really depressing me. I think it would be a good idea to try not to care anymore. I wish I never got so involved emotionally.
Today I had a decent day off. Presidents day. just laid back and played with the computer. I am trying not to gripe about the political obsession. I am so trying to get other things on and in my mind.
I got to start playing my violin again. In my last apartment the neighbor downstairs who was the landlady would blare her country music whenever I would even start. She was a jerk. She let it be known that she owned the building and she could do whatever she wanted. Her boyffiend lived on the apartment about me and he would stomp and stomp overhead and then howl like a wolf sometimes. strange. Don't know why he moved in the same building with her but yet would not want to be in same apartment? strange. Maybe even he knew what a bitch she was and was she was good for. cooking and sex basically
so glad I moved out

One thing that makes me happy are Comic Books. Wonder Woman to be specific. But I also like Teen Titans. Lately Gail Simone came on the Title. She just finished her first story arc and it was awesome. My favorite character was resurected from the dead: Hiippolyta and Gail gives her such and edge. Now I saw the cover of the first issue drawn by Aaron Lopresti, the new artist and I am happy. yes my escape is all lined up for me.

I love collecting wonder woman stuff. Like statues and action figures. this makes me happy. I like to look at them. It's the child in me that really doesn't want to grow up.

I gave 5 dollar contributions to two opponents of Senator Kerry. I want him out of Office. I will do the same to any one who goes against Kennedy. My vote will go to anyone who will topple these two frauds who are a disgrace to my state.
I don't just say stuff any more, I take action. Too many people bitch and moan but I am going to do all I can to change the situation. I am so sick of being told who or what is right for me. Screw that! These two clowns sit on the libral laurels and they don't give a rat's ass. They think they are better than everyone.
Signed my voter registration card and sealed the envelope. I mail it tomorrow. I will no longer be a democrat. I will be no part of the party of Obama. I may reconsider my affiliation if the party comes to its senses. but for now I want no part of it.
This election cycle has brought out so much piss and vinger in me. I stand by convictions with action instead of just yapping about it. I mean what I say. Don't mess with me because I will do it. I don't take it anymore.

MR Excuses. Obama

CAMPAIGN ‘08
Obama said oops on 6 state Senate votes

Barack Obama angered fellow Democrats in the Illinois Senate when he voted to strip millions of dollars from a child welfare office on Chicago’s West Side. But Obama had a ready explanation: He goofed.

“I was not aware that I had voted no,” he said that day in June 2002, asking that the record be changed to reflect that he “intended to vote yes.”

On March 19, 1997, he announced he had fumbled an election-reform vote, “I was trying to vote yes on this, and I was recorded as a no,” he said. The next day, he acknowledged voting “present” on a key telecommunications vote.

He stood on March 11, 1999, to take back his vote against legislation to end good-behavior credits for certain felons in county jails. “I pressed the wrong button on that,” he said.

Obama was the lone dissenter on Feb. 24, 2000, against 57 yeas for a ban on human cloning. “I pressed the wrong button by accident,” he said.

On Nov. 14, 1997, he backed legislation to permit riverboat casinos to operate even when the boats were dockside. The measure, pushed by the gambling industry and fought by church groups whose support Obama was seeking, passed with two “yeas” to spare — including Obama’s. Afterwards, he rose to say, “I’d like to be recorded as a no vote,” explaining that he had mistakenly voted for it. Obama would later develop a reputation as a critic of the gambling industry

On June 11, 2002, Obama’s vote sparked a confrontation after he joined Republicans to block Democrats trying to override a veto by GOP Gov. George Ryan of a $2-million allotment for the west Chicago child welfare office.

Afterward, Obama chastised Republicans for their “sanctimony” in claiming that only they had the mettle to make tough choices. A fellow Democrat suddenly seethed with anger. “You got a lot of nerve to talk about being responsible,” said Sen. Rickey Hendon, accusing Obama of voting to close the child welfare office.

Obama replied right away. “I understand Sen. Hendon’s anger. . . . I was not aware that I had voted no on that last — last piece of legislation,” he said.

He can’t seem to get the VOTE button right but we are supposed to trust this phoney WITH THE NUCLEAR BUTTON?

You folks must be fantasists! God Save Us From This Mistake We Are Making, Please!

Link of the Day: Savage Polotics

Welcome to the new democratic party folks. They are heralding the fact that Obama is eating away at Clinton's base when these are the facts: Now pay attention: Open Primary. Republicans and Independants are voting for you Messaih because 1. They know who they are going to send to the general election and 2. They know who is going to be the easier sap to defeat. But does the media present it that way? No, they say Obama is eating Clinton Supporters. News Flash: NOT!
Let me tell you the cold hard facts. You're being set up. You are not winning over anybody. Not white women in Virginia: THEY ARE ALL UPPER CLASS REPUBLICANS-- DUHHHHHHHH. This is why open primaries suck. They are deceptive. Did you Obamababies ever think that maybe all those votes were not for Obama but against Clinton??? Hellllloooooooooo!
Why do I bother? Well, for one thing, when it's all over I can refer to this blog and say:"Called it!"
I got my voter reregistration form in the mail yesterday. Still trying to decide if I want to be republican or independant. Blind Donkeys get hurt walking into everything

Interesting link of the day How Karl Rove may be using Obama to upset the Election

preparing for the worst

I don't even want to turn on the tv when I get home. I don't want to see the bloodbath. She's going to get creamed today.
What is wrong with people. Can't they think for themselves???
If I knew for certain there was life after death I would get in line for my next assignment right now. But as far as I know this is it which is a shame cause the mistakes of others drags down the ones who knew better. Ok, what do I have to cheer myself up? Wednesday is Comic book day. I allways love comic book day. At least I can put my nose in a comic book and for a while I'm in a world that doesn't have to suffer from the errors of mass euphoria.
At least my nephew isn't buying into this garbage. He's a smart kid.
Maybe I'll start playing my Violin again. Maybe I'll use my dual citizenship to arrange a move to Ireland. I just don't want to be a part of this nation of losers anymore

Well, another lose for "Amazon Nation". Hillary sinks in Maine. And you might as well forget about the beltway on Tuesday. I wish I had the day off so I could stay in bed and hide like an ostrich. I uploaded a picture to the blog on how I feel about my government today. I wonder if woman will ever get to the point where they will be able to steer this world away from the Crisis I feel is breathing down our necks.

Obama mania and my paranoid opinion

I really don't trust messiahs from Jesus to Obama, they all give me the creeps. I will not be a part of this mass hysteria that is going to destroy my country. We are going to put a man in office and we think he's going to solve our problems and we don't even know squat about him. This is Scary.
Back in the 30's everyone followed a guy named Hitler. This is too close. Now everyone will say: He's a liberal he's not Hitler
They say he is a great uniter. Not here. I see a lot of people hating his guts and those who love him ready to kill those who are not a part of Obama nation
I feel like Cassanda in Troy. She kept warning that the greeks were coming to destory her country and no one listened.
Maybe I'll just take a klonopin and just chill. It'll probrably take years for this guy to ruin the nation